Learning how to be still, to really be still and let life happen - that stillness becomes a radiance.
- Morgan Freeman
First of all, although I may appear to belong to the new-agey crew, I don’t quite identify with it. Just because I’m an energetic healer doesn’t mean I’m more enlightened, more serene, more calm or more together. I’m not. Yes, I can hold my own in a meditation class…I can drop into the quiet mind zone in minutes. Yes, I’ve read lots of books from the self-help and metaphysical aisles. I resonate with a lot of them, some not so much. I can feel auras and chakras. And most times I can hear my guides. Sometimes they even tell me the latest gossip. Pretty jokey, those guides. If that makes me spiritual, then I guess I am.
But I also have my still judgy-side. I still do a lot of judging of me. I get angry, I can get downright mad and rude. I sometimes choose to lose my cool. And I swear. F-bombs are part of my vocabulary. I frequently get irritated and snarky when the husband doesn’t put the toilet seat down.
On the other hand, I love sleeping in on lazy Saturdays. No crack-of-dawn meditation sessions for me. I still enjoy violent action movies, usually the art house foreign kind…with a liberal dose of energy shielding before I switch the tube on. Just in case. I eat too much duck pate…um yes, I still eat animal products. I’m an occasional meat eater…mmmm, roast chicken! I wear leather jackets & I own leather handbags. I’m no hippy eco-warrior. But I do love getting close to nature on my bush walks. Or when I’m spending a day at the beach.
One more thing, I’m not religious. I was christened catholic, but I don’t identify as one. Haven’t done so in ages. I don’t go to church. I don’t do holy communion. I’m deliberately not completing the sacraments. If you’re religious, I salute you, as you’ve obviously found a measure of faith in a formal teaching. I found mine outside formal religion and that suits me pretty good.
So I think I’m quite normal and not so new-agey. The only difference between me and most people is my measure of self-awareness. I know what I’m feeling, saying and doing while it’s happening. I accept it. I embrace it. Warts and all. And its perfectly fine.
I’m very aware of my actions and my words. So everything I say and do which may affect me or another person is carefully considered. I have this belief that we truly are all one and in case it really is accurate which I’ll get to check sometime on the other side, I’d hate to be treating myself abysmally. And in every situation I find myself I intentionally show me, the real unadulterated, unedited me.
I rarely worry about the future and I seldomly dwell on the past. Really, spiritual is just another word for “aware”. And if you think of it that way, there’s a lot of us out there. Perhaps you're already one.