What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us.
So it was when I was in my late twenties, I was careening on a downhill road rushing to get to work, when I misjudged a sharp bend and veered into the oncoming traffic colliding with another car. It’s one of those detached still life moments when everything appears to happen in slow motion. The dashboard broke and caved in towards me. The windscreen cracked and broke into shards. I hit my head sharply on the steering wheel. The contents of the front seat went flying to the back and anything in the backseat, including my phone, was hurled to the front into the newly gaping hole of the broken dashboard. I could see an electric spark within the hole extinguished. Then the car shuddered to a stop. All of this was happening in the space of seconds, yet my memory still unfolds it in a slow-dance.
The car was a write-off.
I walked away from that head-on collision with nothing but a bump on my forehead, feeling that some unseen force was keeping me safe until I had fulfilled my purpose….that intent I agreed to before I came into this lifetime.
Here I am once again sitting in the void, contemplating how do you know if you’ve served your purpose? In some there is a deep abiding trust in the unknown that you’re being guided towards it. I have at times felt this. Today I feel the weight of all my lifetimes pressing down. I’m being urged to trust. In the eye of the storm, you see order in the chaos around you. The chaos that I created. What if my ultimate purpose for this incarnation was to simply help in the healing of that one person last week? Not some big grand scheme. No spreading of messages to groups of people. Simply affecting the course of that one person’s life. And if their life has been irrevocably changed in a way that aligns them closer to their essence, is my purpose complete? Can I check out now? Too much self-examination in the void makes me maudlin, lol.
Yet we get new messages all the time. Every now and then, a new mission, a course correction. The energy will shift and we change jobs, change roles, reinvent ourselves anew. Because the Universe is constantly expanding, boldly going forward, exploring the new in an effort to discover what else is possible.
While I’m still here, there’s more to be done. Ergo, the work isn't finished. I’ve just been told. All I need to do is to place my foot one step in front of the other. The path will show me my new purpose.
And so it is.