There is only what we think is true, and whatever happiness or suffering arises from that belief.
- Jed McKenna
The one I'm releasing this week is around these two beliefs - (1) If I'm invited then I'm loved, if I'm not then I'm rejected and (2) Love will disappear if I don't look after it, ie love will not look after me. I took these on as a three year old child with abandonment issues, after my grandfather died and I wasn't allowed to go to his funeral. To the little girl inside, it felt like he disappeared and didn't want to be with me anymore. So I did everything in my power to mitigate a future absence of love by being nice to everyone, even when they weren't. Being courteous and polite, even when my boundaries were being breached. Being kind to others, even though I was becoming increasingly uncomfortable.
But even in this situation, love is unconditional. There are no limits to receiving love. It is us who puts those limits on ourselves and as a child, it allowed me to understand how my world operated. Why things were the way they were...these beliefs worked in my favour for a long time. However what had previously made me happy was now contributing to my suffering. They felt like confining restraints, stopping me from being myself.
Love is unconditional...here's to another layer conquered. I had to experience the suffering, to see the other side of the coin and to learn how to transmute it. This is my new multidimensional truth. Love starts by giving and receiving to the self. Every aspect of it. I'm sending you all waves and waves of it.