There is no passion to be found playing small - in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.
- Nelson Mandela
At different life stages, your higher self is gently whispering you towards greater inner growth, usually something scary such as skydiving if you don’t like heights or public speaking if you’re an introvert. Because growth happens at the edge of your comfort zone.
At this point for me, I wanted something more rewarding, more worthwhile, more in keeping with my purpose which was to help people. My value system had drastically changed over the years. I had been in pursuit of material things and achievements to validate my place in the world. Although I’m immensely grateful for these and what they allowed me to experience, hey…my corporate job funded my diploma in energetic healing, I still wanted something new. I wanted to start setting up my healing practice, build my website, meet like-minded peeps in the healing community and meditate more. Problem was, there’s no space for the new to enter into my life. I was in a full-time corporate role, with after-school commitments for the kid and weekends fully booked ferrying said kid to activities or catching up with family. Don’t even get me started on the housework.
I know of others in the same boat as me. Friends who desire to change careers midway through suburban mortgages. Or others who wanted to simplify, spend more time with their brood and move to the urban fringe. But like me, to accept the challenge and step off the ledge into the uncertain was too risky. Who’d be crazy nuts to leave a cushy job?
But the universe has a weird way of pushing our buttons. I got sick. Really, really sick. Twice. Within the space of a month last year. First it was a week of pneumonia. Gah, I couldn’t even keep upright. Then a month later, I suffered a severe asthma attack and the husband had to run me to the emergency room near midnight. I spent a week with an oxygen mask strapped on my mug. And instead of feeling sorry for myself, I was having a good laugh at the cosmic joke. Being on your own in a hospital room gives you plenty of time for self-reflection. Cos I realised I am crazy nuts enough to leave a cushy job.
When decluttering your house, you want to throw out everything that isn’t of value, anything that’s taking up too much space or stuff you simply don’t want to hang onto anymore. So that you can make room for new furniture, new clothes or just keep a new space vacant to be filled in later.
Like that house, if I wanted to welcome the new in, I had to make space in my life by letting go of what wasn’t serving me anymore….that stressful corporate job. And the fear of jumping into the unknown without a parachute (but that’s another different blog post).
So next time you decide you need the new the come into your life, you might want to do some spring cleaning first.